Chapter 54 Involuntary Suffering
The servants of the Du family were very careful in serving them. They brought hot water for bathing, as well as a hot water kettle for the smoker.
Li Yu came out of the shower and changed into a simple long robe and sat there with her hair loose, making a cup of tea by herself.
"Girl, let me wipe your hair for you. Although it's hot, it's autumn. I'm afraid you'll get a wind blow."
There was a girl standing next to them, who was specially sent to serve them.
"Okay, thank you sister."
"Don't be polite, our old lady speaks in person, we must serve the masters well, and we must not neglect, or we will all be driven out without leaving a single one."
The girl smiled and took a handkerchief to wipe her hair.
"May I have your name?"
"Servant Red Lotus, the name of the flower."
"Lotus is noble and clean, it is a good name."
"Thank you for your compliment, girl. If you want something to eat tonight, I will ask you to ask for it."
"Let's eat some light porridge. The dishes don't need to be complicated and light. The road is very bumpy, so I want to take it easy."
Li Yu didn't ask for it, just light it up. This is easier to make and won't embarrass the chef.
"Okay, servant girl will make arrangements now."
Hongxiu dried Li Yu's hair, put a simple bun on her bun, and went to the kitchen to serve dinner.
Lin Yue also came out of the bath, and sat down to breathe a long sigh of relief.
"I still feel like my body is swaying with the carriage."
"Just rest for two days, this journey is really hard."
"It doesn't matter to me, the main thing is that you have worked harder than me. Yu'er thank you for saving my life and taking me with you all the way. I will remember your kindness and virtue in my heart."
Lin Yue sincerely thank you again.
"Don't be so serious, you have to be strong in the future and live a good life."
"I will, this time no one will take care of me, I have to be strong and brave, I will live well, and be with my parents and relatives."
Lin Yue raised her head and took a deep breath, and finally woke up, and could no longer dream.
Li Yu looked at her and pursed her lips, and didn't know how to persuade her. She was really suffering. In the past, her parents wanted to sell their daughters for glory and change their families, regardless of her face.
Now that her parents are gone, she is the only one left. Even if she has an aunt, she really can't care too much about her. After all, Gu Lin is also a widow, and she doesn't have much ability.
"Going to the Wang family to study hard will benefit you."
"I know, it's you who pity me and give me opportunities again and again. I can't be willful anymore. I will learn my skills seriously."
Lin Yue shed a tear.
"The way of life is ultimately dependent on your own struggle. Your aunt hopes that you will live a better life than her."
"I...didn't understand before, but now...understand."
Lin Yue nodded with tears in her eyes.
"Don't cry, or people will think I'm bullying you again."
Lin Yue wiped her tears and laughed, "It's nothing, I've been bullying you all this time, you'd better bully if you are soft-hearted."
Pointing at her flat mouth and said.
"You still want to pick me up."
Li Yu scratched her nose.
"Yu'er, I was the one who felt sorry for you before. I was too ignorant. I... just couldn't accept the reality. You are very happy and lucky. You have parents who really love you. I don't. I actually know everything, but I can't do anything about it... "
I have always been a tool of the Lin family, just a **** to curry favor with the superior and change the family. I understand it all, and I just don’t want to admit it.
"I don't know how to persuade you. I think you may not be the worst now. Now you can live your life according to your own will, learn your skills, and live a solid life. You don't have to be anyone's **** anymore. Just be a pawn." Yourself, Lin Yue."
Gu Lin and Wang outside the door listened attentively and came to see if the girls had settled down and if there was anything missing.
Hearing this sentence, Gu Lin endured the sadness. She is not a tool person, but she was made a tool by the late emperor. It made the Lin family see hope, just like a wolf smelling meat.
Wang patted her on the shoulder, Gu Lin covered her mouth to keep herself from making a sound, turned around and left quietly.
There was a screen blocking the door, Lin Yue didn't notice anyone outside, and Li Yu didn't reveal it.
"be myself?"
Lin Yue never thought about this question.
The dazed expression was a little overwhelmed and dazed.
"That's right, be yourself, no one will force you to do what you don't want to do anymore, you can think about what you like, you can do it, and you can't learn."
Li Yu snapped his fingers and continued, "I liked Lubansuo when I was a child, and I thought it was very interesting, so I wanted to learn it. My father went to find mechanical toys to coax me, but I was out of control, and the more I thought about it, the happier I was. It was only then that the Mohist organization was invited to pass on the matter."
"I like to play with my brothers, and I also yearn to watch them practice martial arts. When I was a child, I wanted to be a heroine flying in the sky and escaping from the earth. It was so free to roam the rivers and lakes, so I made up my mind to practice martial arts. My father secretly increased my training. , want me to retreat in the face of difficulties, so I won’t be fooled, and I have persisted through no matter how hard it is.”
She wrinkled her nose with a little smug expression on her face.
"Yu'er, you know that I envy you and envy you very much. You live a life of unrestrained flamboyance, like a beautiful thorn rose, but I am not as good as you in everything. I am like a clown in front of you, scratching my heart and lungs..."
Lin Yue finally bravely said what was in her heart. She didn't have any close friends because of her introverted personality and low self-esteem.
She is neither stupid nor stupid, how could she not know that she and the Gu family are too far apart, what can she do, her mother sends her directly to the Gu family as a guest every once in a while, and does not come to pick her up for half a month.
How do I deal with myself? The Gu family hates her. It's not that they don't know. My mother doesn't care at all. She just said that this relationship must be successful.
What mother means, shame is nothing, useless things can be thrown into the pail, Gu family, you have to marry or not, it's up to you.
I didn’t understand it when I was a child, but I understood it when I was older. There was something wrong with my mother’s upbringing. She deliberately guided herself to love her cousin, and she was actually using herself, but she didn’t have the right to resist.
At that time, he only said one sentence, why should my cousin hide from her like the plague, so he got slapped, called her a useless idiot, and was fined not to eat for two days.
She knew she had no choice, and she was never able to decide for herself.
"Lin Yue, I don't know how much you have suffered, but I can tell that you are a good girl. You have never done anything bad, but your mouth is worse. No one will force you to do things you don't want to do in the future, you You can be a decent human being.”
"Maybe your aunt knows everything. She let you live in Gu's house so that you can live a peaceful life for a few days without suffering too much grievance."
When Lin Yue heard this, she covered her face and cried, crying so hard, this time she was really sad from the bottom of her heart.
"I failed my aunt, I'm sorry for her, aunt... really loves me, I'm sorry for her, I'm sorry for my cousin..."
Lin Yue lay on the table and howled loudly, accumulating too much bitterness and suffering in her heart that is not humane, and now she found an outlet to vent.
Li Yu didn't persuade, sighed, and wanted her to vent her emotions. She could feel that there were too many backlogs in her heart, which had exceeded the pressure she could bear at her age.
(end of this chapter)