Chapter 186 "Do everything according to your heart."
“.”
Jian Wuya touched his nose in silence, and didn't speak any more. This is already a realm beyond his imagination.
He couldn't imagine a man who never blamed himself.
Is this normal?
This is not normal!
After hesitating for a while, he couldn't help asking: "Brother Tutu, I don't know if I should say something. When everyone is young and frivolous and ignorant, you always reward yourself. ?”
“Do you beat yourself up when you reward yourself?”
"hehe."
Tuberculosis Rabbit sneered twice with no expression on his face: "I refuse to answer."
After finishing speaking, he was the first one to walk towards the cafe. Chen Yi and the two didn't speak any more, but followed closely behind.
The area of the cafe is not large.
There are about seven or eight tables, and there is no one at the bar. There is only a self-service order menu with some lattes, coffee and the like. The prices are not expensive, and they are all around 100 coupons for a cup.
It is naturally expensive to place outside, a cup of coffee costs 100 coupons, go grab the money.
But if it is placed on a B-level map, it will not be so obtrusive.
The rule of this ruin is that after buying a cup of coffee, you can go to the psychological counseling room to find a counselor for psychological counseling.
Under the guidance of a psychological counselor, you can pass through the ruins if you successfully cut off your demons.
The three of them sat on a round table and each ordered a cup of coffee. Soon a cylindrical robot with three cups of coffee on top brought them over.
"The environment here is much more comfortable."
The tuberculosis rabbit took a sip of coffee casually, frowned slightly and put the coffee back on the table: "I can't get used to this bird thing. Every time I drink this thing, I always think of some strange things."
"Okay, there are 5 ruins to clear in total, this is the first one."
"I'll go and make a sample for everyone first."
After finishing speaking, the tuberculosis rabbit didn't stop, and walked straight to the psychological consultation room with the door closed.
Push the door and enter, and the door behind you automatically closes.
In front of me was a room about 30 square meters. A beautiful woman was sitting behind the desk staring at him and said crisply, "Please sit down. I'm Nana, a psychological counselor."
"Nana?"
Consumptive Rabbit thoughtfully pulled out a chair and sat down, put his hands on his arms, looked at the woman in front of him, and suddenly asked, "What's your relationship with the promotion game?"
"Are you an employee of the promotion game?"
"Or was it forced to come in, or is it just an npc that has been instilled with a certain consciousness, and is not a living person in essence?"
"What kind of existence is Ni?"
The professional-looking woman in a small black suit in front of her didn't have any fluctuations in her complexion. She just took out a mirror from her arms and put it on the table.
"You need to keep staring at the mirror for 3 seconds, and then the mirror will show the biggest demon in your memory."
"uh-huh?"
Tuberculosis Rabbit didn't speak anymore, but looked away from the woman in front of him, and looked straight into the mirror. He actually wanted to know what the biggest demon in his memory was.
Three seconds passed quickly.
The mirror began to change, as if the computer had crashed, it became only white, and it was impossible to see through.
"what is this?"
“.”
The woman with a calm face suddenly leaned forward a little bit, frowned slightly and remained silent for a while before she said solemnly: "In your memory, you don't have any demons."
"Everything you do is worthy of your heart."
"Hey."
Constrained Rabbit grinned when he heard the words, and leaned back on the back of the chair: "So it's over now?"
"Yes, you can leave now."
While the consumptive rabbit was leaving the house, a voice rang in his ear.
「Ding, congratulations on successfully clearing Ruin No. 3.」
"It's easy."
Standing in front of Chen Yi and the two of them, Kutu spread his hands and shrugged his shoulders relaxedly, "It's basically not difficult. I went in and chatted with that psychological counselor and came out."
"This should be the simplest ruin among the seven ruins in this B-level map."
"If the difficulty of this map is like this, then it can't afford the level of a B-level map."
"I'll go in and try."
Chen Yi got up, strode in with a cane in one hand, and walked out again a few seconds later: "The psychological counselor said that I don't have any demons, and I follow my heart in everything I do."
“.”
Jian Wuya on the side remained silent on the spot with an ugly expression, he knew that these two people were abnormal, how could there be someone who never even thought of self-blame in his whole life.
Good people?
No, as far as he knows, most of the so-called good people do good deeds to soothe their hearts because they blame themselves too much.
There is only one possibility for a person like this who has no self-blame in his heart.
That is the ultimate self.
Except for myself, other people don't care at all. They don't care about anything that happens outside, only care about themselves.
In this case, it is naturally impossible to feel self-blame.
And this kind of person is often a villain template, and there are two more beside him. Damn, he clearly remembers that he joined the decent side, right?
The corner of his mouth twitched slightly, he didn't say much, but stepped into the psychological counseling room in front of him
Follow the process and stare at the mirror for three seconds.
Suddenly, he felt his feet lighten, and when he regained his sight again, he appeared in a void.
Chaos all around.
Only one picture kept flashing around him.
There are scenes of his wife lying in bed with a serious illness, there are pictures of his wife being murdered by the vendor owner in the vegetable market, and there are pictures of him sitting helplessly in the corridor of the hospital crying with his head in his arms.
There are also voices coming from my ears.
There were his heart-piercing roars, his wife's wailing in pain, the doctor's helpless announcement, the bank's cold rejection, and the funeral staff's extremely fast introduction of the project.
One sound after another, and one picture after another.
Wrap him in it.
Like being thrown into no man's land, feeling the almost suffocating silence amidst the noise.
Jian Wuya lowered his head slowly, looked at his feet and remained silent without speaking.
He knows all too well what his inner demons are.
This hurdle, he will never be able to pass it in his life.
Can’t let go, don’t want to let go, let alone let go.
After a long silence, he said in a calm voice.
"I let it go, the world should not be blamed for this matter, it should be blamed on me."
"My wife wouldn't be dead if it wasn't for the fact that I'm a **** and can't make any money."
"If it wasn't because I'm a waste and can't make money, my wife wouldn't be abused at the vegetable market for a few cents."
"if."
Jian Wuya murmured in a trance.
The last time he passed the level of caring demons, he transferred his loathing of himself to loathing of the world.
This time, if he wants to clear this demon again, he has to change his loathing of the world to loathing himself.
He couldn't completely cut off the demons.
Only transfer method can be used.
However, the surroundings are always falling into nothingness, without any feedback, only the pictures are continuously played in a loop, and the screams of his wife are getting more and more piercing.
Jian Wuya, who was originally in a trance, gradually collapsed hysterically.
roared with a frenzied and ferocious expression: "Didn't I say it, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, it's all my fault!"
"I'm a trash, I'm a trash that's worse than a dog!"
"It has nothing to do with this world, I can't blame anyone, everything is because of myself."
“.”
Half an hour later.
Tutu sat on the round table, casually stirred the coffee in front of him with a glass stick, glanced at the counseling room behind the bar and said casually, "Isn't Jian Wuya out yet?"
"It's been half an hour."
Chen Yi didn't reply. He was just studying the contents of the other 6 ruins on the map. The specific contents of a certain ruin could not be clearly seen on the map, only some vague information could be seen.
For example, there is only a short sentence on the map for the information of Ruin No. 3.
「For you, the cafe in the depths of the wasteland is salvation or a mirage?」
It should be difficult for normal players to judge from this sentence what the specific content of the No. 3 ruins is.
at this time-
"Boom."
The door of the psychological counseling room was pushed open abruptly, and Jian Wuya, whose clothes were a little messy, was pale, his back was completely soaked in sweat, and he stumbled out with some weakness.
until you walk out of the cafe.
With his back to the strong wind, he lit a cigarette and put it in his mouth. After taking a puff, he fell heavily on the ground with a pale face, posing with a big character, and looked at the black clouds above his head with slightly dull eyes.
"Hello?"
The tuberculosis rabbit walked out of the cafe, stood at the door and glanced at the top of his head, then took out a cigarette and threw it into his mouth, put his hands in his pockets, looked at Jian Wuya lying on the wasteland, and said casually, "Are you okay?"
"You seem to have experienced a difficult battle inside."
"Although I know that incident has hit you hard, but after so long, it should be almost over."
Jian Wuya didn't reply, just lying on the ground with blank eyes, even though the cigarette he just lit in his hand was swept away by the strong wind, there was no response.
After lying down for about three to five minutes.
It was only after a little bit of mental improvement that he got up from the ground, first glanced around, and then looked at Chen Yibaotu and the others and smiled bitterly: "I'm sorry, I made you laugh."
"This inner demon is a very difficult hurdle for me to overcome. Every time I think about this matter, it is always difficult to get out of it."
"I really love her."
"Ding, warm reminder, this is already the second time this month that you have violated the second rule of July and publicly expressed your love."
Jian Wuya's voice suddenly stopped.
"You should have violated the July rules just now, right?"
Consumptive Rabbit looked at Jian Wuya strangely: "This time, there is no chance of making mistakes at all. Don't confess your love blindly. I really doubt whether you can live until August."
"But there is one thing that I'm curious about."
"If you really just watched your wife die of illness in front of your eyes, would you have such a big demon?"
"Um."
Jian Wuya paused for a while, then nodded with a pale and ugly face.
(end of this chapter)