I often think of her innocent and never-give-up look when she confessed her love for the first time.
I never thought that one day, I would watch her get married and send blessings hypocritically, even though my heart is already bleeding...
As the man said, I put her in the man's palm with my own hands.
I couldn't understand for a few times, why I was so fascinated by Xuechun, and even suffered so many years abroad in order to escape my heart.
Maybe it's because of the ignorance of youth, the girl who suddenly bumped into my life, I think this girl is too special, right?
That feeling of admiration took root, but it made me extremely afraid. After all, the relationship between me and Xuechun is not only a relationship between a man and a woman, but more importantly, we are a brother and sister relationship. Whether morality allows or not, at least the law will never allow us together.
So I chose to run away, and I ran away for several years.
When we met again, I was still unable to extricate myself from Xuechun's gentle vortex, every frown, smile and every move made me unable to control myself.
Xuechun's vague temptation, even the ambiguous eyes, made it extremely difficult for me to avoid it. I once thought that I would fall into it for the rest of my life, even if the girl was not mine in the end, I would dedicate my whole life to her. life.
But she broke into my world.
Her name is Hua Beiqiu, a girl who really looks like a flower.
She is innocent and hearty. When we met for the first time, she held a lunch box, raised her innocent and lovely face, and told me that she liked me.
At that time, I seemed to be used to this kind of thing and didn't take it seriously. On the contrary, Xuechun seemed to mind very much. She threw all the bento she prepared into the trash can and told me not to eat it.
I'm actually a little sweet, is Xuechun jealous?
But later, I felt sorry for that bento. I only ate the meal she made once. I listened to Xuechun and threw all the bento into the trash can. I don’t know how many years later, I was thinking about the taste. Think back to that person.
She always gives me some scares.
From time to time he blocked me, from time to time he delivered lunch to the dormitory, and he was always the first person to help me get the materials.
She pursued desperately, as if she wanted to let everyone in the school know that she was pursuing me.
This feeling made me a little flustered. I didn't want to end my teaching career early because of her, whether it was because I liked being a teacher or because I wanted to get closer to Xuechun.
When she brought another bento, I refused decisively. I hope she can understand that it is impossible between me and her.
But she swears that if she likes me, she can even give her life.
Xuechun finally got angry and rushed out of the dormitory to argue with her. When she found Xuechun in my room, she showed a very shocked expression, and it was this expression that made my calm heart feel uneasy again , Xuechun really shouldn't appear here, even if it's because of my connivance, she shouldn't.
And that photo was sent to my mobile phone by a stranger.
My heart fell into a trough instantly. I thought my education career was over, and Xuechun and I were also over.
But I didn't expect that it was just this photo, and nothing else happened...
She found me, asked me about the relationship between Xuechun and me, asked me if I liked Xuechun, and even tested me, telling me that as long as the two love each other, what is the gap between teachers and students?
I denied it again and again, but she directly pointed out that I did not hide my love for Xuechun well. Xuechun will not give up, and neither will I. One day we will walk together regardless of everything. Together, this is what I am looking forward to and what I am most afraid of. When I was hesitant and afraid, she proposed her little plan.
Pretend to be boyfriend and girlfriend.
She's a smart girl, and I'm sure I'll agree.
Yes.
I couldn't refuse such a request, because what she said made me understand that what I did would eventually hurt Xuechun, and facing her, I was more willing to hurt her and protect Xuechun.
Xuechun broke down when she found out, cried and slapped her and ran away. I chased her out to appease Xuechun. Under Xuechun's repeated questioning, I still firmly said that I and She is indeed together, I think long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, time will dilute everything, Xuechun will fall in love with other people after all, and I just need to watch Xuechun quietly.
Unexpectedly.
I still haven't protected Xuechun well.
Xuechun was raped, and the video was posted throughout the school.
Those well-dressed teachers on weekdays seem to have turned into beasts after seeing these videos, discussing everything about Xuechun lewdly, my anger is burning to the extreme, but I know that right now, I need to find Xuechun even more.
She cared about Xuechun more than I imagined, and the worry in her eyes made my attitude towards her much better.
But after arriving at the hospital, Xuechun said that when she was kidnapped, she was by her side, she knew everything, I was angry, how could she refuse to save her? How could she pretend to care about Xuechun in front of me.
When she wanted to say something about the video to stimulate Xuechun again, I told her to go, and she did as I wished, and ran away sadly.
At night, she came back again, apologized to me, and said that she would help Xuechun and me find the murderer, bring the murderer to justice, and rush to find clues for me. At that time, I seemed to have changed my opinion of her again. At least, this girl doesn't seem to be as hateful as Xuechun said, she is still kind.
I was busy looking for clues, about the hospital, she would always take time to take care of Xuechun, and there would be some new injuries on her face from time to time, I vaguely guessed what it was, but I didn't dare to think about it. It wasn't until I saw Xuechun smashing her face with such a heavy thermos bottle and seeing her donating blood all over her face that I had to deceive myself again. The woman I love seems to have changed.
Although I took her to apply the medicine and apologized, but in the face of her confession again, I also solemnly told her that we were just playing on the spot.
Xue Chun has really changed.
She became suspicious, she didn't want to be far away from me, she insisted on moving to my classroom dormitory, everyone in the school knew about it, and made a fuss, saying that Xuechun is such a shameless person, selfish me Under pressure, we want to keep the relationship between us. In the eyes of secular people, maybe our teacher-student relationship is easier to accept.