Since I was born, it seems to be doomed, I must be the one who goes to the battlefield to kill the enemy, whether it is a soldier or a general.
Born in a family of generals, I was raised from an early age to be loyal to the country and unyielding to the monarch. My fate seemed to have been doomed the moment I was born.
Of course, I think so too.
But when I saw her for the first time, I felt that life shouldn't be so simple. Just one glance was enough to make me sink into the mud, beyond redemption.
That's the most beautiful woman I've ever seen, even if it's a crusade against several border countries, I've seen countless beauties, but she was the only one who caught my heart right away.
I think it must be fate.
That day, she was sitting on the sedan chair, and when the wind blew, the white veil fluttered in the wind, and her long black silk hair drew a trace in the air. hit my heart.
Even a background, I can't seem to control my heart.
From that day on, I put aside my schedule and stayed in Nancheng for many days. I turned a blind eye to the documents issued by the former emperor. In order to see her, I even used military resources, just for her to take off her veil and see her alone!
That peerless face eclipsed the entire brothel, her frown and smile touched the hearts of several people, I thought, at that moment, I fell in love with her, even if it had nothing to do with Fengyue, I was willing to go crazy for her.
Fortunately, she also fell in love with me. We spent several days and nights intertwined in that building. We made eachother vows to the starry sky in the dark night. I said, after I return from victory, I will marry her as my wife!
The border is in an emergency, and the emperor's urgent call is also coming frequently. I have to leave here. Even if I am desperate, I must complete my mission.
Time flies, this war seems to be easier than imagined, a month of intense confrontation, the first victory!
The late emperor ordered me to return to Beijing immediately, and I always felt that I had forgotten something. But I was entangled in the current affairs, so it was inconvenient to think about it. After returning to Beijing, the first emperor did not pursue the matter of Nancheng, so I suddenly realized that the charming lady was still waiting for my return in Nancheng.
The first emperor bestowed the marriage, the princess got married, but I had no power to resist. The princess was intimidating, and I was busy with official duties. I completely forgot her. As she said later, forgetting is forgetting, so there are so many excuses , Yes, it is undeniable, I compared fame and fortune, compared with today's wealth and glory, I chose to forget her.
Eight years have passed, but the difference between me and the princess has not been resolved. Our quarrels will even go from the princess mansion to the palace. We decided to travel around to relax, and it was at that time that I saw her again.
When a child who was 80% similar to me rushed into the inn, crying and asking me to save his mother, I suddenly felt a string in my heart tense, and without any hesitation, I rushed out with everyone, When I saw her in the pool of blood, my heart was so painful that I couldn't breathe. I saved her regardless and took her back to the room. Knowing her life these years, my heart aches from the bottom of my heart. I never thought that she really has kept its original promise.
I was surprised that the assassination was done by the princess, and I was annoyed that the princess didn't return home with a guard all night. How could she have taken me as a son-in-law!
At that time, I seemed to care more about the eight years with the princess. After all, if I don’t love my wife, who will love her?
Maybe it was the moment when I stabbed her heart with a sword, maybe it was the moment when I watched my seven-year-old child jump off the cliff.
Her eyes seem to see through me, she is willing to use her life to fulfill me, fulfill my desire for freedom, fulfill my desire for glory and wealth, fulfill my desire to kill the enemy on the battlefield, fulfill my desire that one day, I will also be praised by future generations, and have great military achievements.
After all, I failed her, time and time again.
The princess did not give me freedom, but imprisoned me in the deep palace. At a dinner party held by the princess, I met a woman who was very similar to her, named Kong Shiyu. She showed affection for me, and I suddenly I felt that God was kind to me, and for the first time I had the idea of reconciling.
The coup came very suddenly. I took out the tiger talisman in exchange for my freedom. The princess refused, but the new emperor, who was in urgent need of power, agreed to me and sent me out of the palace. I immediately left Kyoto with Shiyu.
However, I was assassinated, and Shiyu and I were forced to separate. We were seriously injured and went down the river, dying soon.
But at this time, I felt that God was really kind to me. In a coma, I saw her anxious face again, the beauty of ten years, all the pain, all the frustrations, the moment I saw her, I suddenly felt the pain. reduced to nothing.
We haven't seen each other for three years, and there seems to be a different emotion in her eyes. Xi'er doesn't want to see me. I have long realized that the three of us seem to be changing in the past three years.
Seeing other men peeping at her, I couldn't bear the anger in my heart, and my whole body seemed to be roaring, venting, she is my woman! I showed the courage to kill the enemy on the battlefield and told the man in front of me that you should call her Madam Zuo.
The possessiveness and jealousy that appeared at that time made me understand that no one is allowed to peep at her!
All the jealousy, all the possessiveness, all the anxieties turned into the intertwining of the body, I kissed her lips eagerly, and tossed her for a day and a night, only then did I understand that in her eyes, there were more hardships in order to survive, less love for me.
I was panicked and at a loss, but I didn't dare to show my face. I wanted to tell her through my unremitting efforts that I loved her deeply, even though I had abandoned her.
But I never saw the deep love in her eyes when we parted ten years ago.
The new year is here, and Xi'er will leave here after the new year, and go to Beijing to rush for the exam, and she can see her reluctance. I don't have much idea, I just want her.
But when I took Xier home, I saw such a scene. Shiyu pointed a sword at her, humiliated her with words, and said that I love her because of her similar appearance to Shiyu. At that time, I was the first to meet her. And rejoice.
But the arrival of Shiyu changed the whole family. My good family was torn apart in an instant. Xi'er was suddenly poisoned. She ran around for Xi'er and suddenly fell into a coma.
When all the evidence points to poetry, I am angry, her viciousness is beyond my imagination, such a femme fatale woman, how could I fall in love with her? !
Xi'er was damaged, and her mood changed obviously. Although she allowed me to take a concubine, her eyes showed her extreme displeasure.
I see such small thoughts in my eyes, but I don't feel dissatisfied at all. Instead, I am a little happy. Does it mean that she cares? Xi'er left, Shiyu actually beat her up, my beloved, I was afraid of melting in my mouth, how could Shiyu hurt me?
I feel that my patience is almost reaching its limit.