In my eyes, she is just a child.
We are ten years apart. The gap of ten years has made me unable to believe that she will eventually become my wife and the person I want to protect with my life.
I am extremely fortunate.
When I was hesitating, she always insisted on a heart, a heart that loves me.
When she was fifteen years old, she broke into the life of our army. Her every frown and smile seemed to be filled with countless efforts. The word "stinky old man" also became a shackle in my life.
At first, I thought that the person I loved was Shan Xiaoning.
Because we understand each other, we have common topics, and we appreciate each other. At the age of 25, I think Shan Xiaoning is the right person, so I pursue it desperately.
However, when she met Shan Xiaoning for the first time, she said she was my fiancée. At that time, I thought she was playing tricks, but after thinking about it, this little girl must be possessive.
I quarreled with her because of Shan Xiaoning.
I had a bad relationship with her because of Shan Xiaoning.
I made her cry heartbreakingly because of Shan Xiaoning.
At that time, my life seemed to be Shan Xiaoning.
I watched her forbearance and retreat, I watched her change from a lively girl to a taciturn girl, but I felt that she would grow up and meet someone she really liked, at least that person, no it will be me.
She ran out of the barracks because of anger.
Stayed out overnight.
I was anxious, and there were countless bad thoughts in my mind, what if she was bullied, what if she was captured by bad guys? How can I be worthy of Aunt Mu and Uncle Mu's entrustment?
But I found her and saw her sleeping on a bench with a teenager.
That anger.
Made me almost lose my mind.
When I couldn't sleep all night looking for her, she actually spent a comfortable night with a teenager?
When I lost my mind and threw her in the car.
When I saw that teenager chasing the car along the road, wanting to know her name, her address, and everything about her, I stepped on the gas pedal mercilessly.
She will meet her lover, but she will definitely not be this kind of roadside punk, absolutely not.
Shan Xiaoning's fuss made me burn out.
I am a soldier, if I cannot give my woman a sense of security, how can I give the country a sense of security? So I chose to let her go.
She wailed until my heart broke.
When I wanted to compromise, she left, and her lonely back seemed to be imprinted in my heart, deep and deep.
I thought it was just her whim.
Unexpectedly, she really didn't see me for five full years.
Even if I went to school to look for her, I went to wait for her where she lived, knew that she had gone to my house to accompany my mother, and I rushed back to see her, she avoided them one by one, yes, if a person really wants to If I want to hide from someone, how can I find it?
That feeling of guilt is deeply rooted in my heart.
And the love between me and Shan Xiaoning seems to have stopped five years ago. I thought I loved her deeply, and I thought she loved me deeply. Yimo.
Five years later, she is back.
It was so dazzling that I couldn't take my eyes off it.
Brother Peng Ze.
Those three words hit my heart.
Seeing all the soldiers being so close to her, watching her smile like a flower, but I don't see my shadow in her eyes. The girl who used to follow me all the time, shouting to marry me, finally grew up and became Did someone else?
I don't know what mood I was in at that time.
I know Shan Xiaoning's uneasiness, I want to give her a sense of security, so I don't care about the little discomfort in my heart, and treat Shan Xiaoning wholeheartedly.
But Dad's arrival broke it.
Dad came this time to announce to everyone that she is my fiancée, so that Shan Xiaoning should not have any unreasonable thoughts. Dad and I quarreled fiercely. In the end, my heart was empty. .
But I comforted myself to firmly believe in my relationship with Shan Xiaoning.
My education told me that I must stick to my goal, even if people all over the world don’t support me, I will stay with Shan Xiaoning for the rest of my life.
But Shan Xiaoning did that kind of thing, my disappointment is unparalleled.
Strangely, there was only disappointment, not even the slightest bit of heartache.
This is five years of love?
What I call love? Why, Shan Xiaoning's betrayal is not as painful as not seeing me in her eyes?
I am sick.
Really sick.
The sudden infectious disease made me fall down when I was as strong as a cow, but the person who has been taking care of me is actually her. She stays by my side day and night and checks on my condition all the time. .
What else does she want?
I don't want her to contract this terrible infection.
I don't want to delay her youth, I'm already thirty years old, and she's just twenty years old.
ten years.
Ten years.
This kind of thought made me even more angry. I wanted to throw her out of the dormitory, but I didn't expect that I stood up and fell down one step earlier.
As her condition worsened, she cried into tears.
She followed me all the way, she stopped talking about love, but told me with actions that she never gave up on me, not for a moment, those eyes, full of love, I understand, I don't understand.
does she love me
Is it because of me, or is it because of that ridiculous doll pro from decades ago?
Ten years is a gap that cannot be crossed. We stand at the two ends of time. I dare not imagine it, and I dare not reach out to touch it. Even if she once said that fifty years later, the difference between us ten years apart much?
My condition has improved.
She even wanted to confess to me again, saying it for the last time.
the last time?
My heart was trembling, and a good word blurted out, even I didn't expect it.
I want to try it.
Maybe when the two are together, she will know how inappropriate the two are, will really let go, and will no longer follow behind me, an old man.
The ridiculous thing is that when my thoughts are noticed by her, when the words are spoken in her mouth, I feel very uncomfortable. We are together, why should we separate, if, if she really meets someone she likes, if, if Will she really choose to love me only because of that baby girl, and will she leave me?
I haven't waited for me to slow down.
Dad's secretary came and handed me a document.
This little girl is crazy.
I was numb all over.
Yunxi is Dad's right-hand assistant. In less than two years, she has become Dad's confidant. It can be said that she has all means and abilities.
Such a man is very good and is about the same age as her.
Um.
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