Chapter 12951295: Do you really understand? (Part 1) [Ask for monthly ticket]
absurd!
absurd!
absurd!
Extreme emotions were brewing in his chest, which instantly turned into overwhelming anger and unwillingness. The king grabbed Mei Meng's collar with one hand and moved forward until he tripped and the two fell in a mess. She used her other hand to draw out the pipe and round dagger, and put the tip against Mei Meng's neck!
Heavy breathing sprayed on Mei Meng's face, and the ferocious facial features were reflected in the other party's eyes: [Mei Jinghe! If you want integrity, go and get it. As a minister, why do you make decisions for me? Are you a subject, or am I your puppet? Yes, you are open-minded, you are noble, you have lofty aspirations, you regard life and death as floating clouds, and your vitality is more important than your life, but don't use me as your sacrifice! 】
Facing Mei Meng's unruffled eyes, she looked like a joke, like an unreasonable idiot who was out of control!
This realization made the fire in her heart even stronger.
The round dagger stabbed a little bright red on Mei Meng's neck.
The two of them paid no attention to the injury.
The king let out the complaints that had accumulated in her heart over the years. If she didn't speak out, she felt that her soul would be overwhelmed by the huge coercion. The expectations that Mei Meng had imposed on her were tearing her soul from all directions: [Jinghe, Am I your king, your friend, or am I a stepping stone for you to practice your morality and a sacrifice for martyrdom? Have you ever sincerely regarded me as your master, even for a moment? Jinghe, tell me, do you really have sincerity? 】
Mei Meng was the one who pulled her out of the mire.
Naturally, she burst into tears of gratitude, and now when she thought of the scene back then, she felt as ethereal as a dream. No one in this world will do their best to another person without any reward. There must be a chip behind it that an ordinary person cannot bear. Reason told her that Mei Meng wanted something from her! The price may be so high that she can't even repay it!
But she had no choice but to agree.
She thought that as a Wang Ji who was used as a bargaining chip by her father and brother to win over the generals and became a victim of the struggle between her father and brother and her husband's family, there was nothing in her body that truly belonged to her and was controlled by her.
What could Mei Meng want from her?
If you agree, life can continue to move forward.
If she doesn't agree to Mei Meng, she will be used as a bargaining chip by her father and brother many times in the future, and there will be many so-called male favorites on the bed.
She made up her mind and agreed.
As expected, Mei Mengye helped her plan her way out of the quagmire.
At this point, she was actually satisfied, but she didn't dare to say this when facing Mei Meng, who could coordinate the overall situation. In the past, her life was in the hands of her father and brother; now, her life is in the hands of Mei Meng. When can she stop?
Mei Meng pushed her to a road she had never thought of.
Power is at your fingertips.
From the fiefdom princess to the regent and assistant, and then to the little puppet replacing her, she stood in the position where her father and brother stood before. Standing in this position, one can achieve almost any wish except "immortality". The king thought of Mei Meng again and wanted to ask her what she wanted.
Mei Meng's answer was the same as before.
Fame, wealth, glory?
But it was all clouds covering her eyes, she just wanted to seek truth.
The king of the country also knew that Mei Meng had the conditions for perfecting the way of being a scribe, and he had been worried for a while, but he was still sure that Mei Meng would not hurt him. As time went by, she completely took control of the Qi State, and the civil and military officials in the DPRK and China also changed from doubting her at the beginning to sincere submission.
With these ministers, Mei Meng is no longer irreplaceable to the king. On the contrary, Mei Meng has not yet adapted to the change in their status. Regardless of whether she was Wang Ji back then or the current king, his attitude towards her is the same as before...
The king felt a little unhappy.
She was keenly aware that Mei Meng did not put herself in the perspective of a subordinate, nor did she treat her like a minister serving the master...
The friendship between the two still exists, so this little bit of unhappiness is not worth mentioning.
The rift will not disappear because the owner does not pay attention, it will only become more obvious as time goes by - the king finds that he and Mei Meng are increasingly different, and Mei Meng does not value the interests of the king. Many means of change even harm their own interests.
She began to wonder—
Is Mei Meng really loyal to her?
But she really didn't want to part ways with Mei Meng.
As long as it doesn't hurt her fundamentals, she is willing to give up her interests for Mei Meng and take a step back. However, she retreated step by step, and Mei Meng pressed forward step by step. This was like the gravel inadvertently swallowed by a water clam. The gravel tortured her soft flesh all the time, causing her severe pain that could not be ignored. However, she could not give up the gravel and could only choose to endure it.
The patience of a water clam can be exchanged for pearls that please humans.
Her patience only resulted in Mei Meng sending her to the altar.
[Is it me you are loyal to? Or are you loyal to your morality? 】
The king asked this question tremblingly.
The answer was already clear in her mind, but she still wanted to hear the real answer from me! Self-abuse-like emotions rolled and burned in her chest, giving her some kind of impulse—stab her and kill Mei Meng!
Mei Meng listened to the hoarse voice of the person above her. She waited for the other person to calm down for a while before she slowly said: [I thought we should at least be of the same mind - you and I have similar experiences and the same pain. We should grow together. The same fruit, with the same direction, standing at the same height, despising the common enemy, life and death cannot be compared to foreign objects. 】
In the face of the pain they experienced, death was nothing but a laughing stock.
If death can become a mockery of pain, why not?
When Wang Ji's heart died, there was still Mei Meng who was willing to help her, but what about Mei Meng herself back then? Mei Jinghe is a famous flower that has been carefully raised by her brother's family for many years. It is undeniable that her brother loves and indulges her, but this brother-sister relationship also has a major premise - the famous flower must stay in an expensive flower pot specially prepared for famous flowers.
She couldn't go anywhere but this flowerpot.
Although the fertile soil provided constant nourishment to the flower, Mei Meng still felt that she was withering. No matter how she explained to her brother, how she tried to fight for it, how she expressed her inner pain, in his eyes it was just her moaning for no reason, and it was her self-destruction. She is the sister of the county governor. Any man she wants can fight for her. It is just a word of her to treat Lu Jue as a toy, but she wants to be tempted by a toy?
Why be tempted?
The governor's sister is attracted to a male slave?
How could Mei Meng put her brother's face at risk?
【I am tempted because I am a human being! 】
The elder brother was furious: [You shouldn’t do that to a slave! 】
[So what if I am attracted to the slave! 】
The elder brother asked coldly: [What qualifications do you have? Lu Jue can make you wear silk and satin, or can he keep your fingers clean of spring water? Everything you get now is given to you by me! Just like these flowers you raise, can it survive like this? 】
He swept Mei Meng's cherished flowers to the ground with a flick of his sleeves.
The porcelain basin shattered and soil flew everywhere.
The precious flowers that were bright and dazzling just now fell among the debris of the soil, became stained with dirt, and the flowers and leaves were broken and dying.
Mei Meng felt that she was also dying.
【Am I just a flower you raised? 】
The elder brother sneered: "You should be lucky that you and I share the same mother, and you are qualified to be pampered, instead of being abused outside!" 】
From that day on, Mei Meng felt that her soul had been separated from her body, and she could only stand in a third party's perspective, quietly watching her body slowly decay from the inside out. Death was so close to her that Mei Meng could hug it just by stretching out her hand.
Until I wake up one day—
She is a poisonous spider, and she is the only one who can poison others! How could she sit back and wait for death when fate was playing tricks on her like this?
She staggered down a dark, bumpy and unfamiliar path, with a gloomy wind blowing, and only mocking laughter from all directions. There seemed to be some monster in the darkness reaching out to her with countless hands, trying to pull her down and fall together. How can she not be afraid?
She found someone of her kind along the way.
The joy at that time almost made my chest burst.
Mei Meng carefully pulled her, and the loneliness that followed her finally no longer bothered her. Even if you find out later that the other person is on a different path from you, it doesn't matter, the other person will always understand.
To this day, the other party says: "You are just being sentimental." 】
Mei Meng was so dizzy by these four words that she didn't even care about the thick and warm blood running down her neck and soaking her collar. The sting was not worth the pain of her heart being crushed back and forth. She said in a dry voice: [You once had a desire to live and die...]
This life has been abandoned once a long time ago.
[That was back then, now I don’t want to die! ] The king became angry and embarrassed and said, [Mei Jinghe, do you understand, why should I be arranged to die by you? I am the lord of a country, I am the lord of Qi country, and my life is more valuable than you and everyone here! Why should I die? Even if I lose to Shen Youli and become a prisoner, I can still enjoy the glory and wealth instead of being a dead ghost who will be praised by future generations! 】
How could these false reputations be worth her life in exchange for?
She doesn't want to die, she can't bear to die, she doesn't want to die!
[Why do you regard me as your martyr sacrifice? 】
Tears fell on Mei Meng's face and eyelids.
The king, who confessed his dark and timid heart in one breath, was choked with sobs and could hardly hold the round dagger in his hand: [Mei Jinghe, have you ever been loyal to me? I am just a puppet in your hands. If I save my life by you, I will pay the price of being manipulated. You and my father and brother, you and the old head of the Cui family, you and Cui Zhishan... What are the essential differences between you people? He made a choice for me in vain, calling it for my own good. 】
[But you are the king...]
The conflict is not about life and death at all, but about identity.
Mei Meng hoped that as the leader of the country, she could show courage and courage that was no less than that of the male rulers, and even higher than most of them. Let the present and future generations know that the monarch is just a position!
Courage and character have never been a quality exclusive to anyone.
As long as you have the ambition to fight against the blue sky, you can always get out of the quagmire.
It's a pity that the king's idea is different from hers.
Seeing that Mei Meng's expression was dazed but still stubborn, the king chuckled: "Yes, I am the king. Does Jinghe remember, 'If you want your minister to die, I have no choice but to die'?" You have never regarded me as your true master, so what qualifications do you have to expect me to be the master in your heart? Mei Jinghe, I want you to commit suicide now, are you willing? 】
When Qi Cang arrived, the place was in a mess.
Mei Meng slumped on the ground in a state of confusion. Her hair had turned a lot whiter at some point, as if she had been drained of all her energy. She was as dumb as a puppet, with blood dripping from her neck, and her vision was unfocused. There was a familiar round dagger thrown at her feet, but the owner of the round dagger was nowhere to be seen.
Qi Cang was not surprised by this.
The authorities are confused, but the bystanders are clear.
He said that Mei Meng was similar to Yan'an, and Zheng Qiao had also asked Yan'an if he was treating himself as a martyr sacrifice.
Hey, isn’t this a kind of reincarnation?
[You should have gone it alone back then! 】
Qi Cang started to act in hindsight.
Going it alone can save you a lot of trouble.
Mei Meng moved her stiff limbs. When he twisted his neck, the blood that had flowed out had dried up and stuck tightly to his skin, and the wound on his neck had healed under the gentle temperature. She smiled bitterly: [It’s difficult. 】
It is still difficult to reach the sky.
Qi Cang said: [Why did you choose her? 】
Mei Mengnum said: [The right person appeared at the right time, so it was her. Unfortunately, it was just wishful thinking on my part. 】
[Not everyone wants to die a heroic death. 】
The leader of the Qi State is as young as a flower, and the world of mortals has not ended.
Mei Meng closed her eyes: [I know. 】
[So, what are your plans? 】
[Let her go, she will take her Yangguan Road, and I will cross my single-plank bridge. ] Mei Mengqiang stood up staggeringly, and after standing still, she looked at Qi Cang, [You **** her away, and then go into seclusion. If you haven’t finished watching the excitement, go find fun elsewhere. 】
Mei Meng doesn’t plan to leave.
She has arranged her own ending.
Qi Cang frowned and said displeasedly: "You want to drive me away?" 】
What rank does Mei Meng have, and you dare to arrange it for him?
[What, you don’t want to have fun anymore? 】
[Hmph, aren’t you just having fun? 】
Mei Meng stumbled to steady herself, leaving Qi Cang with a weak back and the words: "It's up to you." 】
Staying is a dead end.
Not only Mei Meng knew this, but the soldiers also knew it.
The king, who was arranged to join the ranks of deserters, knew better.
She looked back and looked away, gritting her teeth and looking away cruelly.
[Mei Meng, you will regret it! 】
There is nothing important in the world except death.
Sacrificing one's life for so-called morality is only done by fools.
The appreciation of future generations is not worth a penny to her! Only when you are alive can you have hope. If you die, there will be nothing!
[And I will not regret it, I am right! 】
Except for Mei Meng and a few others, no one else knew that the leader of Qi State and the leader of the Allied Forces had left the battlefield disguised as deserters, and this news could not be known. Once it spreads, the morale of the army will inevitably be weakened. Mei Meng arranged for his confidant to pretend to be the king of the country and tightly cover up the news. On the eve of the final battle, Kang Guo's side staged another two-piece set of embarrassment and night barbecue.
Mei Meng ordered the scribes to disperse the sound barrier.
Familiar hometown tunes were quietly introduced into the camp.
Mei Meng listened for a while and said: "The singing is good, but it's a pity that there is no music to harmonize with it. Come, please take my Zizhu Dongxiao." 】
In the early years, when she was busy with government affairs, Mei Meng stopped playing for a long time.
This instrument has been well maintained, and its tone is as mellow and soft as in my memory. When it first sounded, the distant and desolate sound spread and filled the clouds. At some point, the loud and crisp Juozhen joined in.
Shen Tang listened quietly to the music.
[I don’t know where to play the reed pipe, and I have to march all the people to their hometowns all night long. ] She looked up at the waning moon over the valley and said, [You are preparing to fight us to the death tomorrow. Also, the reinforcements have been waiting for a long time, and they have run out of ammunition and food. If she doesn't fight, she will have no chance. 】
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